19 years after.

I'm back!!! I arrived St. Avanger this morning with the train. It was really a trial; the whole trip! First of all, I had 15 minutes to run and catch my train. I forced Dad to come with me, hehe. I hate travelling, because I get too stressed and tensed. Somtimes I wish I could just snap my fingers and find myself at my final destination.....

Anyhoo, Dad helped me to my train, which left at 22.50 PM. So, I was sitting in my seat which was next to the hall (crap....) and in comes this cute guy.
*me trying to keep my cool*
"Hello, ummm, my seat is right next to you... So..."
"oh, ok." *smile, YES!*
So, I let me move in to his seat and kinda get nervous. HAHA
he kept checking his phone all the time.... and me too. I caught him eyeing me from the side of my left eye. And he kept smiling while keeping eye-contact with me. Hehe.... I wanted to make a move, but.... I was afraid.... of rejection....

Oh, sorry, you're wondering how my stay was? G.R.E.A.T! It was good to see my family again. My little sister and brother stood by the door and waited for me, hehe. Dad and my auntie too. Minus Mom :(
So, Friday was spent by being at home and relaxing. Saturday morning, I woke up with a birthday song and the beautiful sight of my family, minus mom ;( (it's kills me....) In the afternoon, I went to see my brother playing ice hockey and my grandmom came over with cakes, buns and a present :D.
Later that night, I was at party. My friends had a b-day bash, so I got to see my best-of-friends on my b-day! T gave me gift; the newest K.O.L cd. So, I was really wanted to hit the clubs (which I never do), but I forgot my I.D. at home. HAHA, that is a sign!
During the night, a good friend of mine talked about the N-word. Why it is acceptable for people of African origin to call their fellow ones by the N-word, why it isn't acceptable for the other race and how he loved "Black jokes"..... One thing for sure, I don't like hearing or using the word. If it isn't acceptable for whites to use if, then why is it acceptable for "us" to do so? All in all, the whole thing leads to categorizing people based on their origin. Anyhoo, I'm tired of the whole racial topic.... Some people prefer to look behind rather than forward.

I left the party early since I'm a baby who needs alot of sleep and woke up next morning with a full schedule. I was to meet three best-of-friends; KiKi, H and Rose.
I met H & Rose together in the city. We walked around and caught up on how our lives were. Rose hag just gotten into a relationship, which I'm very glad for. H  just moved to a new school and is aiming for higher goals. The girl is unstoppable. In the midst of all, H said:
"It seems like we don't talk like we used to..."
I'm glad she felt that way, because I sensed a change when we talked together.... I don't want to lose her. And I won't.
Later on, I met up with KiKi, but I only got to see for 1 hour.... Like I said, tight schedule. I went home, wearing my dad's hood sweater and my leather jacket, which WASN'T suitable for the weather. It was ice cold.
Hours passed and I found myself on the train. I didn't feel like leaving. But then again, I have to mold and create my future and life.

Like I said, I arrived this morning. Slept until 13.00 PM, showered and went to school. Met up with John and Z, who seemed happy to see me. Likewise :D
Well, I guess that's it. At the moment, I'm sitting on my comfy bed, listening to Atmosphere and getting myself ready for the making of a better me!


God Bless and hope your weekend was nice.

P.S. If you were to choose, how would you prefer to die? Comments are more than welcomed! No, I'm not suicidal, just want to know your opinions.

black panther has to use glasses for a year. Anyways, nerds are hot. haha